Turner - The Sweetest Baby In The Land

You've all heard about my baby Turner right? I hope so. If not, View my Google+ page to read about him. So, last night my family took a trip over to see them, and I could say it turned out to be amazing. Both Declan and Turner were sleeping, so Maya and I went to see Owen. I stayed for the majority of the time, but I barely understood, and I was just desperate to hear Turner through that baby monitor. I went upstairs and my mom and Ronnie were going to the store, so I sat with Derek and Roxy, their cat. Roxy would come to me sometimes and rub against me. I appreciated it, but Turner was my everything. Eventually, when my mom and Ronnie were back, Turner began to cry. Derek came and took him downstairs. His face was sooo red from crying, but he managed to be smiling. Everyone was cooing at him, and greeting him with an open hello. Eventually, Ronnie layed Turner on the carpet in Declan's playmat, and we all played with him. Owen stared at me and then asked shortly after, "Do you want to hold him?" I nodded. Owen picked him up off of the carpet, and handed him straight to me. I smiled at Owen instead of saying thanks. I played with Turner, until Ronnie was forcing Owen and Maya to go back downstairs, just so it can be Me and Turner. Then, it was. I played with Turner. He was sitting up on me, and Derek was on the couch beside us. The kitty, Roxy, was running around us. I always would try to turn me and Turner so he could pet Roxy. It worked sometimes. Then, Ronnie came and said that I can take Turner upstairs, wrapped in his blue blanket I always hold onto, and he can be my personal barbie doll and I can play with the baby (Turner). I did for about 10 minutes, layed him on the spot I did on January 8 to put lotion on him. Then, Ronnie came and said he needs to sleep and my mom wanted us to go home, it was midnight. That was honestly in the Top 3 of my best times with Turner.

With Arms Wide Open - Turner's Song

I officially found the song for Turner!!! My new song that I will forever dedicate to Turner! It's the most beautiful song for the most beautiful baby boy, Turner Renkin, heard about on Take On The World. Turner's song is called With Arms Wide Open by Creed. It's what I will forever think with Turner. Here's the lyrics for my baby!!!

Well I just heard the news today
Seems my life is gonna change
I close my eyes, begin to pray
Then tears of joy stream down my face

With arms wide open
Under the sunlight
Welcome to this place
I'll show you everything
With arms wide open

With arms wide open

Well I don't know if I'm ready
To be the girl I have to be
I take a breath, I take himby my side
We stand in awe, we've created life

With arms wide open
Under the sunlight
Welcome to this place
I'll show you everything
With arms wide open
Now everything has changed
I'll show you love
I'll show you everything
With arms wide open

With arms wide open
I'll show you everything oh yeah
With arms wide open

If I had just one wish only one demand
I hope he's not like me I hope he understands
That he can take this life and hold it by the hand
And he can greet the world with arms wide open

With arms wide open
Under the sunlight
Welcome to this place
I'll show you everything
With arms wide open
Now everything has changed
I'll show you love
I'll show you everything
Wth arms wide open

With arms wide open
I'll show you everything oh yeah
With arms wide open

Every little lyric of this song represents Turner!! I searched songs about Loving a Baby Boy, and here it was. This is Turner's official song. I'll show him everything, and I'll do it with arms wide open. I'll always be there for him. If holding out my arms wide open to Turner is what life takes for me, I'll do it. For him... LOVE YOU TURNER!!!

Little to Nothing

This is a post I should've made yesterday, the minute Maya was mad at me. I am saying it now.

Maya, I'm so so so sorry for everything I've done. I swear on MY LIFE I did not make that Maya Hart account. I really didn't, although, I am guilty for treating it like you when we weren't fighting. You did nothing to deserve that, and I'm so sorry. I never should've done that, it was honestly so stupid of me. I feel bad for everything I've done. I'm sorry for leaving you alone with Farkle at lunch yesterday, I'm sorry for everything. I wish I could just fix this with you! I miss you as my best friend, I wish it never changed. You're my life, and I promise, I don't want to be negative. I always wanna be with you. I'm sorry. It's my fault. What can I do to make things right again?

I'm sorry for not being who you thought I was. I never should have done that. You've always been my best friend. No matter what we do, we'll do it together. I miss you. Without you, I have little to nothing. I'm really sorry, please forgive me. I will do anything in the world for you to accept me, and let me try again... :)

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Stories - The Contest

So, I've been offered a once in a life time oppurtunity!! It's very exciting! So, today my English teacher asked me if she could talk to me. I thought I was in trouble. She said that there is a writing contest for writing novels and stuff like that and if I win, I can get a book published!! I'M HAPPY. She knows I am the best writer in the class, and knows I am capable of ACTUALLY winning!! So, I'm very excited!! Also, if I win, an author comes to give my school a presentation, and talk about stories and books, and then will bring me up!! I'm so excited. It's all due by March 31, 2015 so I will have to write something by then! I emailed the people holding the contest, and they said the more stories I submit, the more chance I might win!!! SO, I AM HAPPY!!!! I just might win this, I can see it! It's from Grades 6-9 I think. So, I have a chance up against writers who are young. So, I hope I can do this!!! This will be good for Maya, she'll get some of her day out of school if I get us that live presentation! :)

Friendship Rental - It Was Only Temporary

It's basically like the end of my life. I've lost everything. I lost my best friend, I lost my baby brother, and I lost someone to talk to. What have I done with myself? How am I going to make it in life when I am so full of disappointment, I can't even bare to try anything I think will disappoint me. I guess I am just not as worth everyone's time as I thought I was. Maya doesn't care one inch about me anymore, she hates me so badly. Auggie doesn't even consider my feelings. And today I lost another friend. Today in gym class, the teacher said were doing something called Mission Impossible, where we have to create obstacles to get across the entire gym without touching the ground. I thought it would be fun when I joined my friends Lee-Ann and Siena's group. I also welcomed Farkle. When they kept taking off on me and Farkle, we said that coping with our group was the impossible mission, not the obstacles. So, then eventually Lee-Ann and Siena were being nice to us again, and we all got to work until two VERY annoying boys who ALWAYS fool around and the one of them is getting 45% or lower in every subject, had to join our group. We were always so mad about them. Lee-Ann's real name is Alysha, and when the annoying boy who get's 45% or lower in every subject started calling her Alysha, she yelled at him. What's the story behind her hating the name Alysha SOO badly? Oh well. Then, at the end of class, I went up to one of my, now, best friends. Keeland. I asked him who is group is, very nicely. He thought I was asking to join his group. "A lot of people." He said, trying to point out that I am not joining them. "I asked who, Not how many. I don't care how many. I have a group, ya know." I said, kind of meanly, but more annoyed. "Well, my group doesn't want you anyway." He said. "Not offended." I said, he stared at me confused. "If you really think I wanted to work with Mackenzie Doucette and Jennica, think again. Cause #EW. Seeing that girl (Mackenzie) run is sicker than watching a cat barf up tomatoes and eat it again. And that's coming from a girl who watched her own brother do that." I explained to him. "Your so hostile you know." He said commenting on my Auggie story. "Yeah?! Me?! You're the one who said I have to PAY you actual MONEY for you to be my friend! It's not worth it!!" I said to him. The class didn't even notice, or the teachers who are strict that while we are supposed to be putting our equipment away, we are putting it away perfectly. No excuses. Not even 'your-stupid-friend-is-saying-you're-hostile-when-they-make-you-pay-money-for-friendship.' "I only made you pay because I don't really care!!" He yelled at me. The class kinda looked, but in the same moment, went back to their jobs. "Wow, I never knew that. No wonder you can only achieve Mackenzie Doucette Level partering!!" I said, walking away, barely holding my tears back. I ran to Farkle who said he's not worth it. "Didn't you see it coming? You can't keep friendships, Riley." Farkle explained. "And when I don't, will you still be my friend?" I asked. "Always, of course! Don't worry! Farkle is always here!" He said, trying to cheer me up. Keeland could see me telling Farkle and Lee-Ann who was now there who stupid he is. He felt bad, but that was for himself, not me. I knew it. I knew it from the start. Nobody could be that nice to you, without a price. Although, I wouldn't be surprised if in the end of February he said, "Here's your reciept for our friendship! PS, you need to pay the last 50 cents." I am never talking to that kid again. I was actually thinking of telling Mr. Hing and Mr. Parsons. Honestly, no wonder he hangs out with Mackenzie and them! I honestly bet right now Mackenzie is breaking open her piggy bank to pay Keeland's this month friendship rental! In this way, I kinda feel bad for her. But who knows, maybe he respects her as a person..... HAHAHA!!! He doesn't respect anyone. This has always been a game. Why can't I win? Why can't I prove him wrong?! I mean, by now he would've told me if the whole PAY HIM thing was a joke. HE HASN'T!!! I have a two month payment for my Friendship Rental! How can I rent a friendship, even buy it? He is so disrespectful. Honestly, I never thought I'd meet someone who's so desperate for money. He is greedy. I. Hate. Him.

Original quotes by me to that idiot. Well, I guess all of my friendships are either temporary or rentals. Actually... just temporary. Only one was a rental. Well, I hope you don't have to hear more about Keeland on this blog ever again. Have fun not hearing about him... I sure will.

One Last Time I'll Say It!!

Okay, Maya is done here! Honestly, it's like she is turning into Bailey!! I am London now!! The person with nothing worth it but songs! No, no, no!! Not another one of them! When is it my turn to have something I like?! Well, now I need to talk about something else. Hear me out.

Maya will not just take people into her life and change them 100%. Someone so good can be so bad if they can't live their regular lives. Second of all, those new people who come will not be anything like Maya, but they have rights to be who they were originally. Third, if Maya agrees to leave and ignore everyone, anybody else can come in and steal her songs and be just like her. Because she doesn't exist in their world. She is a TV show character in their world. So anyone can be anything like her. Fourth, if Maya eventually does let someone in, she doesn't just get to push them around and make sure it's only them from wherever they are from around. Fifth, if someone's episodes/lives are taken away, they have every single right to be rude to Maya. Fifth, Maya's not the only one who can be main. Anyone else who comes has just as much of a right to have their people and their episodes/lives. They aren't any less special then Maya is. Who knows, maybe they'd be better. So, Maya can't make them give up their normal lives. Sixth, those Isabelle things would have no year or location problem if Maya didn't seem to be pushing them around. It's like they have to serve her and it can only be Isabelle, Madeleine and Danielle. They could easily live in our generation if Maya would be fair to them.

So, if Maya can follow all of these and make it FAIR to everyone else, Isabelle or someone wont have a year problem. If it is someone like Penny with a million people, obviously she doesn't get them all. But Isabelle's people are just parents and siblings. She has a right to have them with her. Also, if Maya goes by what I listed third, yeah everyone does have a right to be just like her and have her songs. If she wants to ignore me and everyone, the people who are seperated from her have a right to be like her and have her songs because Maya Hart doesn't exist in their world, if so, as a reality TV show character, and they don't have to worry about 'listening to her songs.' So, yeah. That's all I'll say.

Kill Myself To Her

I have some truth about Maya Hart for you guys. She is a mean person who has never been worthy the title of best friend. It's just a title. Just because I've been titling her it for a while, doesn't mean she is it. Honestly, Darby is likely more deserving of the title. I mean, she's so rude, you don't even know. Online, she just tells you guys the stuff I do, and makes herself seem so innocent. In the real world, she leaves me crying for my life. Maybe she never intentionally said this to me, but she makes me rather kill myself. I'd rather DIE than stay with her. I'd rather be dead in a grave rather than stay here with her mean words and selfish acts. She's honestly one of the top rudest people I've ever met. Her and another girl on Google, Kaelyn West, who has no real reason to take sides, and then bully me over Hangouts. I'm honestly never gonna like those two again! My life is ruined all because of Maya! She made Kaelyn hate me!! I miss old Maya. The one who would feel cruel. She is soooo negative. Honestly, she should be lucky that I'm actually tolerating being around her. Like they all did with Bailey (the most annoying girl in history of annoying girls). Really, if she is negative, I'll actually stop tolerating it and quit with it. I wont care what is similar to her anymore if I don't have to deal with her. It won't matter. Obviously, I'm not going to be Little Miss Positivity if I never actually planned on staying for 7 months like Bailey did. It's just like Bailey. People like Isabelle would be better if she weren't with Maya, because she has to compete with Maya. Isabelle can't even have anyone else around but her and Madeleine. The people who came to Maya (Delia, Angela, Isabelle, Carol) all have the same problem. Maya. She was their problem. She had to be their competition. They wanted to be heard, but it was impossible with Maya making sure they couldn't. Maya has made some friends like them before, people who were willing to listen to her, just for getting to be like their episodes or wherever else they're from. They had to pay the price of praising Maya, while sacrificing their old lives. Luckily, someone like Delia didn't have to sacrifice majorly. The people who had to sacrifice majorly were:

1. Isabelle
2. Penny

Okay, two people. But guess what Isabelle and Penny have in common? They both seemed like the best. That's because they loved their old lives so much, they didn't want to do anything to sacrifice that. This is what they each had to sacrifice.

Penny

1. Her people
2. Personality
3. Location (not the biggest deal at all)

Doesn't seem like that much, but she had to sacrifice her personality!

Isabelle

1. Location
2. Year
3. Story

Three small things for both of them, but still major. Sometimes people have to sacrifice their personalities for Maya. Of course, it's every 1/10 that people have the same personality as Maya. Penny was just one of them. Isabelle has to majorly sacrifice her story and her year. I mean, she was never in the Girl Meets World times, she was always in her other time. Her story is different, but that's because of year too. Her location isn't that bad because she can still be from there. But even if it was possible to carry her story, it would have to take place in New York. It never did. Luckily, people like Delia and Angela and Carol never had to suffer anything much. Although, this is a lesson learned. People like Penny and Isabelle have major bright sides and major dark sides. They have to sacrifice so much, but they were so good. They seemed so great at the time. Then you end up realizing it's not what you thought, do to all of the sacrifices. They loved themselves until they realized how much sacrifices they were making. Then, they couldn't be them. Someone like Isabelle has hope on her own. She just had to change so much with us, she couldn't do it anymore. Someone like Penny, would've been best with us. She never would've worked out outside of Girl Meets World. Luckily, in the future, Isabelle might have another hope. Just not for now. She tried to make it work, but so many sacrifices beat her down. She was never used to having to be so quiet for herself. She always was used to being the main, but she wasn't. She had to suffer. She didn't even feel needed. So, that was it. So, lesson learned here was, if someone like Isabelle or Penny comes up again, I should realize the sacrifices they will face, and ask myself are those sacrifices worth it. The only problem is, ever finding someone good. Penny and Isabelle were so lucky, they are like a 1/10 chance. People like that never come up. I guess we'll just have to wait and see. And now I've learned my lesson. Don't become friends with Maya, because she's just like Bailey.